There's only so much crap that can happen to you in a short period of time right??? Wrong.
You know that feeling when you're trying really hard get everything sorted and it feels like, well to quote an old saying... One step forward Three steps back. You know the feeling, the one where the solution to everything is just getting harder and harder to find and whilst your're looking for it a load of other stuff gets in the way? Well at the moment, that's my life.
I'm not trying to say i'm suicidal (before you make assumptions) and i'm not even saying that i'm huddled in a corner somewhere typing this in an insane one finger bashing way. All i'm saying is i'm SERIOUSLY hacked off! Sometimes it's just like circumstance motivates you to not bother being motivated and instead bury your head in the sand.
Probably due to this motivation to be so unmotivated, I'm not going to go on about all the extra stuff. Not at the moment anyway.
I must say, I am suprised that I even get motivated to write this stuff. Let's face it, I don't really have an audience, at best a few people might be opening this due to curiosity or just sheer boredom. In either case it is unlikely that they come back to see the next post!
If people do read these random pieces of my life and my opinion then I wonder what they take from it. I wonder whether they think i'm skinny or i'm fat, long haired or bald dirty blonde or ginger and whether they agree or disagree with my views.
It's all a bit strange.....
So anyway it wasn't a great weekend. Had to take some xmas flowers to my Dads grave with my Mom which is hardly the nicest thing in the world. I don't know if you have ever had the need to take flowers to a grave or anything along those lines (and I hope you haven't) and I don't really know how to put this without sounding cold but I never know how i'm supposed to act and what i'm supposed to do. It's weird. Don't get me wrong, i'm not saying I don't care because I care more than you could ever imagine, it's just odd, I feel strange when i'm there. Maybe it's because I wish I could ask his advice sometimes and I know if I do i'll not get a reply, I dunno - probably best to leave it there before I go off on one.
So moving on to a less upsetting topic....Christmas....argh!!!!!!!
Am I the only one who hasn't even bought wrapping paper, let alone presents???
Due to go shopping with a friend later and I know I need to get my girlfriend some stuff but I don't know what!
I had some wicked ideas the other day and now i've forgotten what they were, my memory sucks!
Anyway, I need to do some stuff so I guess i'll carry on another time.
